Love, you hate it, yet you love it. That felling you get, when they walk by, those butterflies in your stomach. That felling that you get, when you talk to them, heck even look at them. I know we've all had that feeling.
But, its not always so good. That felling of hatred whenever someone else talks to them. You just want to punch them.
You could say it's love, or a crush, but what do you do when it's love, and the other person barely knows you? I know this sounds funny, but I really don't know what do about it. Whenever he comes over, I feel all jittery inside. When he talks to me, (which is like barely, except in T.A.P) I want to faint. I feel stupid that I feel like this, that I'm just crazy, but things have been changing latley.
I notice him glancing over, and I always smile. He does weird thiings in Science, but then again, so do I. In T.A.P I wonder if it's true that he really does need my help, or if he just wants me to turn around. Yes, I know I sound like a little girl, swooning over one guy, but he's not just a guy, he's more than that. I know, anyone reading this should be like, "why aren't you doing anything about this yet?!" it's because I'm confused. Confused on life, love, friends, and flirt. He's such a flirt, and that's what I'm afraid about, that he's just flirting.
And another problem, I'm not your usual beautiful 8th grader, I'm really not that pretty. Small speech impedement, thunder thighs, Asian jokes on me, (And I'm not Asian!!!) and wacky friends. But, I think I'll know whether or not, to keep this up on Graduation. (I know, graduation for 8th graders, but I'll be going to the high school next year) I'm going to look sparklingly beautiful that night, in my black and blue halter dress. Even my cuz told me I looked good, (DON'T BE GETTING ANY IDEAS ABOUT THAT!!) so I'm hoping fo;r it.
Sorry, bout all that, it's just hard telling your friends this is how you feel about someone, it's easier just to tell all these people that you don't know, so there you have it.
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